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[Apr. 16th, 2008|03:15 pm] |
-sigh-
I hate being made to feel bad.
Don't like to be reminded of my mistakes, and don't need someone to tell me that I'm a bad person. Sorry, I can do that on my own, thank you. Don't need any help.
-sigh-
Question I ask myself is why am I so affected by this? Why did I let this person get to me? Why did I let them hurt me with their words? Why was I open?
Must be some changes in me to have such a chink in my armor. Weird.
I realize this is temporary and I'll get over it.
Just frustrating is all. |
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| A Perfect Circle - Three Libras |
[Feb. 8th, 2008|08:58 am] |
Yeah. I get it.
threw you the obvious and you flew
with it on your back, a name in your recollection,
thrown down among a million same.
difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed
and passed over
when i've looked right through
to see you naked and oblivious
and
you don't see me.but i threw you the obvious
just to see if there's more behind the eyes
of a fallen angel,
the eyes of a tragedy.
here i am expecting just a little bit
too much from the wounded.
but i see through it all
and see you.
so i threw you the obvious
to see what occurs behind the eyes of a fallen angel,
eyes of a tragedy.
oh well. apparently nothing.
you don't see me.
you don't see me at all. |
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| Not just a memory |
[Feb. 6th, 2008|12:30 pm] |
Said that line to someone once. Got reminded of it a while back, and have been thinking about it for a while. I like the sound of it. Sort of sums up to someone that you are there for the long run, not just on short notice.
I like that.
Been in sort of a writing mood as of late. Also, and this is probably the kicker, I've been under a lot of stress. Go hand in hand I think. Maybe.
Did from free-writing a day ago where I just let my mind wander and didn't control my fingers as I wrote it out. What I read afterward was... icky. Strange in it's insight into my own head. I'll find it and type it in, typos and all. Wrote it on pads of paper at work... (Yeah, I'm lucky, I can do that sometimes)
Thinking I might use of this creative burst and write a little piece here or there depending on where my mind goes. Been thinking too a lot. Scary!
Might also be that I've refilled my Dunkin Donuts coffee three times today.
Yeah, that is probably it. |
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[Feb. 5th, 2008|10:22 pm] |
Been snappy lately. Also, been under a LOT of stress. Trying to get things done, but it just seems I'm hitting ever god damn road block there is to hit.
-sigh-
Trying to start over, and it just sucks. |
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[Feb. 5th, 2008|04:06 pm] |
There is no place like 127.0.0.1.
If you understand this joke, you are as bad as me. |
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[Jan. 21st, 2008|07:26 pm] |
I'm not dead.
At least, not yet.
Just not worth posting anything right now. I will later on, hopefully tonight, when I can get my thoughts in order. |
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[Dec. 15th, 2007|12:42 am] |
You ever get through periods where you are fearful of something, but have no idea why?
Curious, I must admit. |
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[Nov. 2nd, 2007|01:03 pm] |
Is it wrong for me to have so much respect for a fictional character?
Maybe, but maybe that is just because I'm a very sick person.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kvWAxH3EQus
Saw this, thought to share it since it is freaking awesome. |
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[Oct. 3rd, 2007|09:55 am] |
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Have had bad dreams. REALLY bad dreams for a while now. (I think a week, but they have spaced themselves out for a while now.)
I don't remember them specifically, but I just remember how I feel after them. I wake up feeling "hopeless" and "powerless"... (Which, for those of you who know me well know how much of a control freak I am about myself, and how hellish that feeling can be.)
Freaking weird... |
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[Sep. 28th, 2007|08:17 am] |
For those that know my musical tastes, you know that I listen to a lot of REALLY hardcore stuff. Stuff that most would consider just noise.
yet, I am noticing that such music is getting a lot of attention from spoof videos.
I particularly found this one funny...
I do warn you, it is not for the timid of ears.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EtO5xQC98jM
This stuff makes me laugh for some reason. I know that most if not all of the words are garbled and can't be understood, but that is the point of it. At least for me.
-chuckle- This actually made me laugh. |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 26th, 2007|10:39 am] |
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I think I need a vacation.
Been stressed as hell as of late, due to work stuff and other things. Mostly work, though, as I have been brought off of projects, and new ones put onto me, as well as dealing with the moving and whatnot. I'm getting angry easier, and my patience levels have dropped signifigantly. I'm usually one of the most patient of people I've ever met, but as of late that is untrue. I'm snapping sometimes, and I left work early yesterday due to it. Today may be the same....
I've also been feeling a little dizzy and had a harder time breathing sometimes. I think this is just due to stress, so I'm trying to take things easier.
On another note, I have this idea in my head that just won't go away, so I'm hoping to write it down. My reason for not doing so yet is that when I try to, or even record myself, the idea just disappears.....
Have to see how to do this....
Yet, no worries friends, old Eric will be still be here, just with some of his pulled out for a bit.... :) |
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[Sep. 25th, 2007|10:55 am] |
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Not much to say as of late...
I will post, I promise, but may be a while.... Work is choking me, and I need to get this done.
Damn responsibilities. |
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| Song of the South |
[Sep. 2nd, 2007|07:34 am] |
Does anyone remember the Song of the South movie by Disney? The same one they took away and will never sell again due to it depicting a happy slave? And we all know that there was no such thing as a happy slave?
Yes, I am that old.
Well, I was looking around the past few days, and have noticed that such a thing IS true. I see them all of the time. They each have this cell-phone connected to their ear, looking at their PDA, and all the while listening to their IPOD.
Sound like you? Sound like me?
Let's face it for what it really is. We are slaves to our technology and constant entertainment. We are what I like to call the "Entertain Me!" generation. We are what we are. So, let's call it like it is.
Zi-ip-de-doo-da. |
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| What can I say. Buddy changed me. |
[Sep. 1st, 2007|09:08 am] |
Your Score: Head Box CleanerChances of becoming someone's kittylitter: 30%Sweet! You did great, and your cats probably think you're pretty okay for a human. They'll probably even like you enough to put in a good word with the Grand Mouse Pouncer. You'll have a good job cleaning out the litter boxes of some of the most revered cats in Kitty Kingdom. Such an honor!
(If you like learning stuff, check out A Brief History of House Cats at smithsonianmagazine.com!) |
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